Tuesday 20 November 2012

marina

bought my grand uncle and his friend form  hongkong for sight
seeing at  marina area there weeks(?) ago. it was such a boring
place  oh gosh. we planned to go gardens by the bay dome
but it was raining the whole afternoon so we were stuck
in mbs the entire day .__.
.

                                 the canal street

went to marina with my youngest aunt first as she lives
near me. i don't like her /: she's so mean , always thinking
she's better then others and richer and whatever urgh.
my grand uncle were still walking to mbs so i had to
follow her shopping. went into those branded goods
shop. feeling like a awkward  duck there cos basically
i'm not even rich or anything hmm.. she took her
time walking around or standing there staring at those bags
wasting my time oh gosh pure torture.


                          wishing well outside mbs

finally my other aunt, uncle and grand uncle etc. came.
we stood outside staring at the wishing well for quite a long
tome because it was so cool and pretty :O before it became
filled with  water, it was just a  plastic empty thing,  but
at certain times, the water will  start coming out of the holes
thingy there in a circular motion creating  a whirlpool effect.
 it was cool seeing the well get filled up with water and all
the coins above  getting washed down. the water will pour
down a hole leading  to the canal street  there. so cool!!




here's my aunt trying to video everything hahaha
she likes videoing everything o_o love her xoxo



my lunch at the food court. mmmhmm
my granduncle and his friend bought us five huge plates of
fruits wtf and i was trying to to eat them but they kept on
forcing me to eat. pretty grumpy then. i was so full
already argh






     my youngest aunt walking around~


     them sitting below while waiting for me and my uncle.
     we both got lost searching for them haha





       macaroons and cupcakes at high society





     macaroons at twig high tea restaurant. these looks
     better and have the 'high class' feel haha



   bought vitamin water, fruit punch flavor.



      random shot at gardens by the bay.
      didn't go in thou  ):

 
                                      me






annoying stuffs at home

It's so noisy here. arguments are frequents in and outside my house. Then there will  be those crazy kids/ teenagers playing below my house or outside. that's still ok. the worse thing ever  is the annoying  drilling & hammering above my house. had  been happening over  the past few days wtf. umm excuse me, do you need such a  freaking long time to fix or renovate your house -__- it's so irritating. every few minute  they will start hammering   stop, and start again. the drilling joins in oh gosh. don't get me started on the noises at night

The weather oh gosh. one minute its all dark and gloomy, then its sunny and so hot, and back to gloomy. can't  you make up your mind pshhhh. everytime the  weather changes, i'll have to run around opening or closing the windows and shits 

Laptop is one of the  most frusrating things at home. someday it would be working, some day it just lags and restart by itself  wtf what is this.  and i can't watch dramas online because the sound coming out is just horrible. urgh

Friday 16 November 2012

sick and tired of everything. just fucking leave me alone

absolutely nothing

so fucking pissed right now gosh.
I hate doing nothing, I hate it so much.
It's like wasting my time, my life away.
So pissed at everyone urgh
Parents fight, it's our fault again.
Why marry each other if fighting all day long is what you both do crazy.
Then you both fight, everyone have to stay home doing absolutely nothing damn it.
I'm so pathetic. No friends to go out with oh my fuck. Ask if can, nobody can. Annoying shits. Everyone doing their own thing. Fuck my life fuck everyone fuckers URGHHHHDRVHHFJDJJRBFJD

Wednesday 14 November 2012

broken..

i'm tired of feeling so fucked up.
i'm tired of being ugly, tired of bringing myself down,
tired of being fat, being alone.
i'm tired of being stupid, not being good enough,
pretty enough, tall enough, thin enough, smart enough,
talented enough.


i have a love-hate relationship with clothes.
i'm fat, i don't look good wearing them.
big ass, big tummy, huge thighs, not tall enough
i hate shopping, it brings my self esteem down.
looking at those pretty clothes, always wondering when
is it my turn to look pretty wearing them?
                                        

                                       
i swear not to love anymore.
why am i  always the one being forgotten?
why am i always the one getting hurt?
why am i always used?
why am i always the one waiting?
i give up. it's ridiculous.
                                          
i don't like sharing feelings. it makes me feel 
vulnerable. besides, nobody understands.
nobody care enough to listen. they ask, because they are 
curious. they. don't. care.



i wish.

- grow 10 cm taller
- become 45kg
- skinny long legs, flat stomache
- bigger eyes/ double eye lid
-  nice beautiful hair
- sharper smaller nose
- become smarter, remember things better
- be beautiful
- be popular
- have a bright future
- be rich
- be healthy
- be likeable
- be lucky in love
- have a good singing voice
- better eye sight

i wish upon a star, i wish god, to grant me all my wishes, to make my life better. i wish that they will come true soon.